51. Keep in Touch with People

I have a tendency toward hermitdom.  I can easily spend entire days without talking to anyone.  If no one calls me or happens into my path, it doesn’t generally occur to me to seek anyone out.  As a result, I can go months or years without talking  to people I actually care about deeply.  I’ve come to realize that this isn’t what I want.  I would like to know how these people are doing, what’s going on in their lives, etc.  I’d like to share with them what is happening with me.  However, these hermit habits are longstanding, and difficult to break.  Furthermore, since I’m not in the habit of making contact, I have all these feelings of anxiety that the people I’m thinking of here won’t want to hear from me, or would feel put-upon if I suddenly started thrusting myself into their paths.  Dilemma.